Personal Update August 2021

I’m Sorry It’s Been A While

Dear faithful readers, I am so sorry it’s been so long since my last post.  I really had hoped that having a tablet would make it easier to post more.  However, it seems that WordPress and Elementor do not work well with mobile devices including tablets.  Therefore, I couldn’t write and post from my tablet.  And consistent time at the computer is getting harder to find for me.

There is good news.  Social Security FINALLY did come through for me, although it was not all that I had applied for.  The only reason  was finally approved was because I turned 50 years old.  Sadly, with them age makes a difference.  I’m not complaining because I finally did get approved, but it is illogical that pain and disability are defined differently when you are merely one year older.  

Unfortunately, my husband’s health has been on a downward slope, which has made for some challenging days here in the last year.  He has hepatic encephalopathy, which is connected to liver disease.  The long and short is that due to liver malfunction toxins make their way into his brain, creating challenging issues for those who love him.  It would be a struggle even if I were perfectly healthy. 

Sleep issues are common for me.  I have always been a night person, and 17 years working night shift solidified that in my body.  But now I’m having trouble finding time during the day time hours to get sleep, so I’m stealing sleep whenever I can.  

But I’m A Survivor

One might think with all of this I would be in constant mental illness, but counseling has been successful.  My therapist has signed off on me, although the door is always open if I need to return for a little more support.  I won’t lie.  There have been some periods when I waffled at the edge.  But as I look back upon those times I realize those were the times when I was not forcing myself to take care of me.  I was not getting enough sleep.  I was not taking time for my journal writing or my art.  

Social media had begun to wear on me mentally as well.  Spending too much time online these days can make anyone crazy, depressed and anxious.  I’ve learned from that, and I’m back to staying away from social media for the most part.  (Wouldn’t you know, I think I found a bit more time for things around the house I wanted to get done too!)

I would like to say I’ll be more active here again.  I want to be.  And if I can find the time I will try hard to post at least once a month with updates on my life and my thoughts on things.  But I won’t make any promises because I don’t like to make promises I can’t be sure to keep.

If you are still here and have stuck by me through all of this, I consider you a friend.  I know my life has been a challenge for even those friends who have been around forever.  I’m grateful to those of you who haven’t given up on me.  (We crazies gotta stick together!)