Tick Tock Says the Clock

Tick Tock. Tick Tock. This is what I hear in my head. Tick Tock. Tick Tock. Not literally, of course. I hope there isn’t a crazy clock in my head but some days I wonder.

Tick Tock. What I am hearing is more an urgency of time running out. The problem is I don’t know what I’m running out of time for. I’m not sure what I’m supposed to be doing that I’m not getting done.

Tick Tock. Apparently this fear has a name: Chronophobia. From what I read it generally presents itself in the elderly and those in prison. However extreme stress and anxiety can bring it out in some people as well.

Tick Tock. Aha! There’s my “Aha” moment. Lately there’s been a good deal of stress in my life and I have been feeling a lot of anxiety. So it’s possible that this imaginary clock is reminding me of the huge “to do” list in my head that I will never accomplish if I had a year to do it all in.

Tick Tock. Tick Tock. Midlife crisis? I’m 47 years old. It’s possible. I look back on my life and there’s so much I haven’t done. There were things I wanted to accomplish that I never did. Life got in the way.

Tick Tock. Tick Tock. The time to change my life is now. If I want to get the things done in my life I have to do them now. I was always afraid to dream when I was younger because my dreams were always dashed. There were always reasons why anything I wanted was impossible. So I quit dreaming.

Tick Tock Tick Tock. Tick Tock Tick Tock. The clock keeps ticking. Time keeps moving. I can’t stop it. There’s no pause button to hold it off until I am ready or the “time is right”. The time is NOW.

Tick Tock. Tick Tock. It’s time to figure out what my dream is, and time to make that dream come true. There is no more time. NOW is the time.