Soul Changes

Last year in April I wrote about how I felt there were some big changes in the air. (Changes) Unsure exactly what those changes were I felt them in the depths of my soul. Intuitively I understood these were the kinds of changes that alter life.

When I wrote that I had just begun a new journey in an attempt to heal my soul. A writer at heart, I answered a call to begin writing journals to help figure out what I needed. From the beginning I recognized that this method of healing resonated well with me.

I had begun keeping journals and diaries since eighth grade in school. However, those entries were not going to be revealing the secrets of my soul. Most of the time I wrote about who the teacher yelled at, which girls were giving me the evil eye at lunch time, or what boy stared at me today. Very rarely did I write anything of value until after I was out of school.

Since last year many changes have taken place in my life: I’ve had to quit a job of 17 years due to pain, I’ve taken my writing and art more seriously, and I’ve been working on problem relationships. However, I think I am just now finding the “big one” I spoke of in that blog post.

Within the last few months I have joined forces with some other survivors of various forms of abuse. In this group I am finding the answer to the call I have been hearing since last year. I knew my life was guiding me toward something big. In my heart I feel this is it.

We are calling ourselves “Survivors Offering Support” or S.O.S. Until now many victims in dangerous situations have reached out to find help and only grabbed a handful of air. It is our intention to change that. We want to connect them with people who can help them. It is also our hope to find ways to educate young people so they don’t end up in these situations to begin with.

We are just starting out ourselves. There is a lot of learning and training ahead of us in order to do this. Yet, I feel in my heart this is the reason I felt the changes coming. Life as I knew it will not exist anymore. The woman I was last year is already gone. This is a new person inside this body.

When your soul speaks so strongly, pay it heed. You may not understand the words it says at first, but they will be translated for you when the time is right. For me, this is now.